lalala~
2day.....my soh lou anak murid bday~ so...................this gud gud geh sifu........ wan go wish euu HAPPY BDAY~ [ i noe~ im such a gud sifu~ hoho~ ]

To, AaRoN............ soh lou anak murid~

Sifu wan wish euu hapi bday~ u shld b veri lucky lorr....cz hor.....2day sifu in sch......c dao rainbow.....so damn nice u noe..... xD My da rainbow....long long....big big wan~ u lucky lorr~bday gt rainbow pei~ my bday oso no nice rainbow pei me...... xD

` HAPPY BDAY ` n GUD LUCK~

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neh~ da rainbow~ nice leh~

BURIAL APPLICANT [ Kanji ]

Hello my dear, kill me gently.
A burned body doesn't leave you.
救えないと嘆くなら 死さえ見ただろう？
その呼吸のざらつきは 伪演ととれないか？

降りしきる ｢軋む音｣ に震えが止まぬ
脳で理解し続ける痛みに绝縁を

Die for me．．．, you can't save it.
Is it wrong? 答えてみせて
ほらゆらゆらゆら とその目揺らして
流す涙に嘘は無いと
My hand．．．, eyes．．．, mind．．．, and breath.
最期に残るのは 焼け爛れて腐り果てた记录
子も救えぬ残骸

取り乱す被写体の影 憎悪と恐怖は叫び合って
剥がれ落ちた爱情に 何故この身体まで朽ち果てる
赤く笑う闇の中で 息を吐く度に零れた
救いようの无い言叶は その ｢憎悪｣ とよく似ている

降りしきる ｢軋む音｣ に震えが止まぬ
脳で理解し続ける痛みに绝縁を

Hello my dear, kill me gently.
A burned body doesn't leave you.
産声と悲鳴知る耳に 願いよ届け深き底へ
どうかどうかその润む目に 映り込まぬように沈めて
深く．．． 二度とこの身に触れぬよう
そして笑うその歪な思い出も

Forget me．．．, you can't save it.
Is it wrong? 答えてみせて
ほらゆらゆらゆらとその目揺らして 流す涙 が全て嘘と
My hand．．．, eyes．．．, mind．．．, and breath.
最期の置き去りは 　焼け爛れて腐り果てた記録と
子も爱せぬ揺篭

BURIAL APPLICANT [ English Translation ]

Hello my dear, kill me gently
A burned body doesn't leave you
If you wait that you cannot save me, have you at least seen death?
Can I take your ragged breathing as a fake act?

Under the creaks that rain upon me, the trembling won't stop
I will break my ties with the pain that I can only understand with my mind

Die for me, you can't save it
Is it wrong? Answer me
See, let your eyes sway and waver
Because there are no lies in spilled tears My hand, eyes, mind, and breath
What is left in the end are the rotten memories that have been burned
And the remains that can't even save a child

The shadow of the subject of the photograph goes crazy.
Hate and terror scream togetherSeeing the peeling love, why must this body rot as well?
In the darkness that laughs in red, the foolish words that were spilled
Every time a breath was released is very alike to that hate

Under the creaks that rain upon me, the trembling won't stop
I will break my ties with the pain that I can only understand with my mind

Hello my dear, kill me gently
A burned body doesn't leave you
Let my wishes reach the ear that knows a newborn baby's voice and the sound of screams, to the pit bottom
Somehow, please make them sink so far into those wet eyes, as if to swallow them
Deep...So that they never touch me again And those warped memories that laugh

Forget me, you can't save it
Is it wrong? Answer me
See, let your eyes sway and waver because there is nothing but lies in spilled tears
My hand, eyes, mind, and breath
What is left behind in the end are the rotten memories that have been burned
And the carriage that can't even love a child

BURIAL APPLICANT [ Romanji ]

Hello my dear, kill me gently.
A burned body doesn't leave you.
Sukuenai to nageku nara shi sae mita darou?
Sono kokyuu no zaratsuki wa gien totorenai ka?

Furishikiru "kishimu ne" ni furue ga yamanu
Nou de rikaishi tsudukeru itami ni zetsuen wo

Die for me..., you can't save it.Is it wrong?
Kotaete misete
Hora yura yura yura to sono me yurashite
Nagasu namida ni uso wa nai to
My hand..., eyes..., mind..., and breath.
Saigo ni nokoru no wa yake tadarete kusari hateta kiroku to
Ko mo sukuenu zangai

Torimidasu hishatai no kage zouo to kyoufu wa sakebi atte
Hagare ochita aijou ni naze kono karada made kuchi hateru
Akaku warau yami no naka de iki wo haku tabi ni koboreta
Sukui you no nai kotoba wa sono "zouo" to yoku niteiru

Furishikiru "kishimu ne" ni furue ga yamanu
Nou de rikaishi tsudukeru itami ni zetsuen wo

Hello my dear, kill me gently.
A burned body doesn't leave you.
Ubugoe to himei shiru mimi ni negai yo todoke tsukaki soko he
Douka douka sono urumaru me ni utsurikomanu you ni shizumete
Fukaku... nidoto kono mi ni furenu you
Soshite warau sono ibitsuna omoide mo

Forget me... , you can't save it.
It's wrong? Kotaete misete
Hora yura yura yura to sono me yurashite nagasu namida ga subete uso to
My hand..., eyes..., mind..., and breath.
Saigo no okizari wa yake tadarete kusari hateta kiroku to
Ko mo aisenu yurikago

yippiexzz~ me n him ok edi~ no more angri him edi~ cz he said sowiee edi.... xD
eventho.....duno is he ownself wan say or his frenxz go force him say wan larr.... but den..... dun care larr~ cz now we made up to each other edi.... so ok edi~ so i oso gud mood edi~ den he oso gud mood edi~ ^^Y
dear dear.....rmb nxt time dun make me angri edi arrr......... xD LURBE EUU~

hoho~ music ezam over edi~ burden oso lifted~ xD
but den arrr...........when wan go ezam dat time oso late....zzz..... late almoz 45mins..... sooooooo many question oso tembak wan..... ish! u muz b wondering y i late eh~ well....cz of my mom lorr.......ask her go out earlier oso canot....make me late edi....haihz....sumore...traffic jam like wat oni.......wth larr.....go anywhere oso jam jam jam.....deng.....make me late until like wat.....evryone oso start edi....oni me late.....wth larr..... =.=+
i so damn mad dat day......so damn bo song my mom da whole day........aihz.....veri dissapointed neh.....damn scare i fail in dat ezam...... TT_______TT
aihz....nvm larr.... oso over edi.....fail ma fail lorr......ppl alwyz say dat i ...... ' HAVE POTENTIAL TO FAIL ' ......... xP

TRUTH [ English Translation ]

Let me stay with you even if it hurts both of us
Why must I always demand so much
Don't you know my heart could never stay put
There's simply only one love I want

Believing in miracles we can come across
I go on playing a melody for you
Even if I end up losing everything
This feeling is forever,
It's my truth

Believe in yourself even when you stumble
Wipe your tears as you walk on
Open up your heart beyond the memories, surely
There is a hope we call tomorrow

Give me your loneliness and I'll give you my tenderness
Don't forget the dream we saw that day
Even if we're separated, in this heart
I will feel you forever,
It's my truth

Your whisper reaches the scattered stars
Illuminating my confused heart
In every encounter and farewell, what people search for is
This strong bond that will unite them someday

All the sadness throughout the worldIf it's for you, I can take it all in
Even if the whole world deserts me
I believe in those eyes,
It's my truth

TRUTH [ Romanji ]

Let me stay with you
Kizutsuke au no ni
Naze konna ni motomete shimau no
Don’t you know my heart?
Sunao ni narezu ni ita no
Tada hitotsu no ai ga hoshii no ni

Meguriaeta kiseki wo shinjite
Kanadete yukitai anata e no melody
Moshi mo subete wo nakushite shimatte mo
Kono omoi wa eien na no
It’s my truth

Believe in yourself
Tsumazuita toki mo
Aruitekita namida wo nugutte
Open up your heart, omoide no saki ni kitto
Ashita to iu kibou ga aru kara

Give me your loneliness
And I’ll give you my tenderness
Wasurenai de ite ano hi mita yume wa
Hanareteite mo kono mune ni itsudemo
Kanjite iru anata dake wo
It’s my truth

Tsunagaru hoshi ga sasayaki kakeru
Tomadou kokoro wo te ga shinagara
Deai to wakere hito wa sagasu no
Itsuka musubi aeru tsuyoi kizuna wa

Sekaijuu no kanashimi mo subete
Uketomete mo ii anata no tamenara
Sekaijuu kara okizari ni sarete mo
Sono hitomi wo shinjite iru
It’s my truth

aihz....music ezam comin edi.... so stressed.... canot rmb anyting i learnt.... trying to rmb... but canot... aihz.... cham dou sei.... too many crap on my mind lerr....

ytd...had da moz fucked up day of my life this year............. wth... evryone treating me like duno wat kinda shit on da mid of da road.... damn it.... =.=+ first......in sch....i thought i was gonna hv a gud mood da whole day n can pei my dear dear geh..... but den.... mana tau.... dat fukin St. John senior...ex-instructor....pk CHONG KOK YAN.... damn him larr..... force 9 me go kawad kaki.... tsk.... if i dun wanna join....no matter how hard i practise for kawad kaki oso da same wan larr.... oso teruk geh marr... still go force 9 me go kawad worr.... damn larr.... =.=+ den i veri damn bo song him edi.... evryting he say.... i lawan his cakap like hell..... until he oso noe i bo song... xD n honestly..... it FEELZ GUD~ xD
n den....in sch da whole day....i edi damn tired edi.... no mood edi.... but den.... so ngam..... my dear dear oso not much mood...... so both of us oso bo mood..... den he oso bo mood go pei me or go sayang me like dat........=.=+
den.... nite edi...at home... thought my bad day over edi.... mana tau.... my mom....so deng.... go suddenly scold this n dat..... n den force evryone muz slp at 11pm.... wth larr..... i on9ing at dat time den she go ask ppl muz slp so damn early worr....wth larr......den ngam ngam dat time.....i on9 start late...so muz off early....make me canot blog ytd.....ish... she scold me like wat oni larr.... so irritating................i edi bad day edi.....den she go +bad day for me sumore......haihz........ so i ytd.....veri damn bo song.....all oso letup in my head edi.... xD i think my blood pressure oso wan break record edi..............=.=+
but dun k larr....over edi....bo song jao bo song.....no nid k............=.=+

n btw to my anak murid~ ``` GAMBATEH ``` xP

aihz.....relationship.... y do we choose to b in one anyway? relationship letz u enjoy da best time of ur life... u'll feel like datz all u nid in life... but den.... relationship also hurtz.... n it even makez u feel like da whole world's over...n there'z no reason to live anymore....

recently....dun feel so secure in my relationship lerr..... n i hate this feeling of being insecure..... it suckz..... i duno y larr... but den... i reli wanna trust him wit all my heart.... but den.... itz jz so hard to do so when ppl say something like dat.... itz not dat i dun want to.... but.... aihz.... duno wat dey say is true anot also.... duno itz jz a rumour.... or real wan... aihz... but den.... im reli afraid of losing u.... especially when i love u sooooooo much...... datz y... i cant lose u.... muz do more to prove to u dat i love u... but i think u jz wont noe how much i love u.... dun ask me y i love u so much.... i cant answer it myself.... i duno y oso.... aihz.... y i love u soooo much geh jek.... i reli wonder if u love me as much as i love u...... y do u hv to make me love u so much.... >.< 'I LOVE U' lorr.... [eventho ur not gonna read this.~ xD ]

HAPPY BDAY HAPPY BDAY~

URUHA frm GAZETTE bday on 9th June... my dear fren Tong bday 10th June... n she big fan of URUHA.... soooooo lucky neh she..... bday oso can same wit idol.... >.<> ' HAPPY BDAY!!! '

YIPPIEXZZ!!! My dear dear no more angry me liao lu~~ tytytyty for no angry lou po zaii oo~ lou po zaii promiz wun cut myself ANYMORE liao!!! wit euu by my side... when angry oso no nid cut le~ find dear dear to 'fatt pei hei' oso can... xD
LURBIEZ EUU!!!

BATHROOM [ English Translation ]

Why can't I sleep?
I was fascinated by the silence.
It is empty to talk to myself in a damp room again.
Why can't I sleep?
Because I saw you.
You look down at the wet floor.
Leaning the head while sleeping.

I just didn't have any feelings for the uninteresting reality.
I adoringly looked at you without saying a word and even forgetting to blink.

I want to fall asleep, just feeling the fear of awaking.
I want to forget everything. It is selfish nonsense.
I call your name. I go mad with the silence.
I shouted while holding your thin shoulder, it was too frail with warmth

I was fascinated by the uninteresting reality.
I fount out that it even was meaningless that I had been borne not to cry

The voice at my back kept on.
The reason was not important.
Only you look so sad in front of me.
I hate myself so much because I couldn't do anything for you.

Tell to you, who gave me my name.
Can you be beside me as it is.
Yeh, for me you are the first and last 'mother'.

I softly lined you with deep red color on the white wall.
I came close, the still warm cheek.
I just smiled calmly
A big teardrop was filled with you.
And I felt we could become one.
The time when the eyelids close and the warmth is gone, I am beside you.

BATHROOM [ Romanji ]

Nemurenai no wa naze?
Shizukesa ni yoishireteta
Shimetta heya de hitori mata kuchuzusameba munashiku
Nemurenai no wa naze?
Anata ga mieta kara
Shiten wa nureta yuka atama wo kashigete nemutteru

Shiritaku mo nai you na genjitsu ni tada mukanjou de
Koe mo desazu zutto matataki sura wasurete anata ni mitoreteita

Nemutteshimaitai nezame dake wo osorete
Subete wo wasuretai migatte na tawakoto ne
Anata no namae wo yobu kamoku ni ki ga fureru
Yasete kata wo tsutsumi* sakenda kagososugita nukumori ni

Shiritaku mo nai you na genjitsu ni fukaku kokoro obore
Kuchibiru wo kamitaeta namida sae imi ga nai to shitta

Tachi tsukusu boku no haigo no koe
Hakidasu wake nado dou demo yokatta
Tada me no mae no anata ga totemo sabishisou na kao de
Nani hitotsu dekinakatta jibun wo shinu hodo nikunda

Namae wo kureta yuiitsu no anata e kono mama soba ni itekurenai ka
Sou boku ni totte saisho de saigo no yasashiki "haha"

Shiroi kabe ni sotto makka na e no gu de anata wo fuchidotta
Mada atatakai hoho wo suri yosete shizuka ni waratte miseyou
Ootsubu no namida ga anata to kasanatte hitotsu ni nareta ki ga shita
Mabuta wo toji nukumori ga kieru koro boku wa anata no soba de

SOWIEE arr dear dear... duwan angry lou po zaii adi le larr... lou po zaii zi cho jorr... wun cut myself again adi... unless if reli beh thn oni cut larr harr... wun cut adi wun cut adi... sowiee arr... duwan angry adi arrr...

now i noe hurting myself hurtz euu even more... so i'll try not to hurt myself anymore cz seeing euu hurt bcz of me hurtz me even more than hurting myself.... when u said dat u dun mind me 'fatt pei hei' at u when im mad at anyting instead of hurting myself... i was touched... so touched... n when u said ur heart broken bcz i hurt myself... i was even more touched.... sowiee... ngo zi cho ge larr....

I LOVE U...

St. John Kursus~ soooo tiring...until my leg muscle all pain like hell adi... but den... it was fun~ especially whn we had those playing gamez part... played wit loadz n loadz of water~ but den...duno y me so bad luck... run run run den halfway... pk liao... =.=+ reli luck seh nia... so malu eh... pk 2x sumore... xD

den... on da 3rd day... which is 2day~ we had kawad kaki competition neh... so malu... my group all oso kawad dao so teruk... like cacat-ed wan... xD but...nvm de larr...almoz all groupz oso like dat wan... xD n den~ nice part reach larr~ " deng deng deng deng "~ we had our drama presentation~ our group presented da 'Beauty n da Beast' ...canto version lerr... edited wan... xD i played da part of da father...n our group leader...a guy...played da gal...watz her name again...? 'Belle' ? wateva... it was jz so funny~ da guy even had da hair on...wear skirt sumore...hahaxzz~ n me... da father... i draw some moustache on...wahaha~~ n den n den~ me go wear my dear de shirt~ hoho~ soooo nice eh~ ^^Y JZ WAN HIM TO NOE I LOVE HIM by the way.... xD

ntg else to say liao except... i guess i'll still continue going to dat kursus thing eventho itz soooo damn tiring...xD dun ask me why...i duno... but i jz feel like going nxt yr~ hoho~